Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Just One of Those Days...



Last Sunday I went to my weekly yoga class at Tula Yoga, with my favorite teacher, David. David is the best instructor I've ever had, and I learn something new every class... Except for last week.

I went into class feeling tired, with a full stomach and zero energy. After falling limp in my first attempted chaturanga, I knew I was in trouble. My arms felt weak. My hamstring muscles were tight. My nose was runny. My stomach was uncomfortable. My head started hurting. The sweat dripping off the end of my nose was distracting. The yogis around me were all rocking it. My mind was going a thousand different directions, concentrating on anything other than my practice. When I tried difficult poses, my body did not cooperate whatsoever. I felt inadequate, insecure, and self-conscious.

With each pose, I got angrier at myself. Why can't I do this? All I wanted to do was rest in child's pose, but I refused to let myself. I was afraid other people would think I was weak and "bad" at yoga if I took breaks.

After class, I left feeling angry, exhausted and extremely bitchy. I had never had a worse class. I knew it had nothing to do with David's teaching. The problem was within me. I brought my baggage into class with me, allowing my negativity to breed when something didn't go right. By the end, I was a giant ball of negativity and frustration.

I'm not writing this blog to linger on anything negative.... I'm writing it to let you know that even yoga instructors - even people who have been practicing for a long time - have their days when yoga is miserable. Sometimes I'm able to use my yoga practice to get out of a bad mood, sometimes I can't. Last week I certainly didn't manage it. But I did come away from that practice with the intention to not take myself so seriously. I vowed that the next time I feel that low in energy, I would allow myself to rest in child's pose as much as I need to, not worrying about what anyone else thinks. It's what I teach my students all the time! It's all about self-acceptance, no matter where you are or how you feel.

So the next time you have a bad experience with yoga (it WILL happen inevitably), take away a new intention for the next time. Evaluate what was happening in your mind to make you feel negative, and vow to change it in your next class. There's bound to be a difference.

So I guess maybe I did learn something new after all...

Saturday, July 7, 2012

The Principle of Satya: Non-lying



Satya, the second of the Yamas (restraints), roughly translates to "Non-lying," or restraint from untruth. Satya applies not only to our words, but also our thoughts and actions.

Words - This is the most obvious form of satya... We all know we're not supposed to lie to others when we speak. The interesting thing to note here is the cases when satya conflicts with ahimsa (see previous blogpost). If telling the truth to someone causes harm, it becomes a gray area. That's where the practice of discernment comes in - considering all the factors of a situation to make the wisest decision possible. Consider the consequences of telling the hurtful truth versus keeping it to yourself. Which will cause more harm in the long run? Don't sacrifice your relationships to maintain truthfulness unless it is absolutely necessary. Fortunately, for most of us, that dilemma won't present itself that often in life, so in general, practice telling the truth. :)

Thoughts - This may be the most difficult form of satya, since we often don't know when our thoughts are untruthful. Our thoughts are the results of our life experiences, and because we don't know anything else, it's often nearly impossible to see our own distortions. That's why it's so important to have loved ones around you to help you identify and challenge your thoughts and beliefs. Be sure to listen!

Actions - Here, I'm referring to the idea of integrity - being the same person at all times. We often develop several "identities" based on our different environments - we behave a certain way at work, a different way at home, and a completely different way by ourselves. Try to develop satya - restraint from untruth - in all environments of your life. Be yourself 100% of the time.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

The Principle of Ahimsa: Non-harming

In our cultural context, we often hear "yoga" and simply think of the physical exercise. But when yoga was originally developing, the "asanas" (poses) were actually just a small part of the yoga practice as a whole. Patanjali, the first to write a book about the yoga practice, described eight "limbs" of yoga:

  • Yamas (Restraints) 
  • Niyamas (Observances)
  • Asanas (Poses)
  • Pranayama (Breathwork)
  • Pratyahara (Sense withdrawal)
  • Dharana (Concentration) 
  • Dhyana (Meditation) 
  • Samadhi (Enlightenment) 
In my mind, the order in the eight limbs is very significant. Notice that the first two deal with lifestyle. First and foremost, a person must evaluate their attitudes and behaviors. Now, this self-evaluation often happens naturally as a result of practicing Asanas. You may have heard a yoga practitioner talk about the way he started to think about how he treated others, or himself, when he began a consistent practice. So, as is often the case, the first three limbs begin developing around the same time. They continue to grow and change together with time and practice. However, it is important to recognize the fact that Patanjali placed the Yamas and Niyamas first, which shows that yoga was developed primarily as a lifestyle discipline, not a physical exercise. 

There are five Yamas/Restraints: Non-violence, non-lying, non-stealing, non-obsession, and non-possessiveness. The first one, Ahimsa (non-violence, or non-harming), is in many people's opinions the most important, because it is often said to encompass all the others. (That is, if you embrace the restraint of not bringing harm to others or to yourself, you will not, of course, steal or lie, because those things are harmful.)



The chance to "practice" ahimsa presents itself in pretty much every single moment of our lives. What we eat, what we buy, what we say, what we think, how we treat our loved ones, how we treat strangers, how we treat ourselves - all can be affected by this idea of non-harming. 

Food - This is a tricky topic, and one that I don't necessarily want to go into great depth about. (The reason being that people can be very sensitive about their food choices.) One thing I will say is that you will find greater numbers of vegetarians among people who practice yoga than any other group. Why? Because of ahimsa. Life is precious, whether it's yours or mine, or a dog's or cat's or pig's or cow's. If I may be so bold (Eek! I promised myself I wouldn't get preachy...) as to use the phrase "spilling blood" (I know, I know, you don't want to think about it that way), we start to think about the life of the animal that was killed in order to satiate our desire for a hamburger or fried chicken. Can you do without meat in order to protect those that can't protect themselves? (Note: I'm not talking about the proportionately small number of people in third world countries who actually need meat to live, I'm talking about Americans with their factory farms and spoiled taste buds.) (Also note: I have great respect for people who are willing to simply reduce their meat intake to once or twice a week, or those who only buy meat from farmer's markets where the animals are at least killed in a somewhat humane way. Every little step helps!) (Also note: If you are one of those people who think that vegetarianism is unhealthy, check your facts.) (One last note: I am certainly not perfect. I am a cheese addict, and sometimes I buy cheese and eggs and milk from grocery stores where it undoubtedly came from factory farms where the animals are not treated well. I have decreased the amount of these products, but I hope to one day be completely free of them, either as a vegan, or a crazy city girl who owns her own goat and chicken. :))

Food 2 - Okay, I had to interrupt myself on that last one. I could go on for hours. This second part about ahimsa/food has to do with non-harming ourselves with what we put into our bodies. Okay, here we have a serious hypocrisy alert... I am a junk food junkie. In fact, if my husband Shane is reading this, I guarantee he just snorted when he read that "what we put into our bodies" sentence. Shane is constantly getting onto me for not eating healthier. My loves are all forms of bread and cheese, and also sweets - and often a day goes by without me eating anything else. It's quite terrible. But I am getting better, I think. (For example: today I had a grapefruit BEFORE eating pizza and Cheez-its and gummy bears.) But in all seriousness, this is an area where ahimsa has at least brought AWARENESS to my bad habits. Awareness is the first step to changing, and so I have great hopes that I will one day be able to change my eating habits to be less harmful to my body.

Purchases - This is probably fairly obvious, and my point here is not to preach to you, but to simply say that ahimsa has the ability to bring about consciousness in everything we do. Do you want the next car you buy to be an environmentally dangerous gas guzzler? Do you want to buy items that were made in a third world country where the workers are abused and underpaid? Do you want to buy produce that was shipped from thousands of miles away and artificially ripened and hormonally injected? The principal of ahimsa can help guide you in all of your everyday purchasing decisions.

Words - We all know how much harm words can cause. Everyone has specific memories of a time that someone's words seriously hurt their feelings. We can also remember moments where we said things that hurt someone else. Words can't be taken back. So each time you speak, ask yourself, "Will these words cause harm to anyone?"

Thoughts - Thoughts are often the impetus for actions and words. Since our actions and words can be harmful, we need to consider our thoughts as potentially harmful as well. Also, because our thoughts are dominated by our ego, the majority of what goes through our minds is about ourselves. And since most people have plenty of negative self-images or low self-esteem, our thoughts can do great harm to ourselves. Ahimsa towards ourselves can often be the most important step of all, because in order to be kind and love others, you must be kind and love yourself. 

The principle of ahimsa goes far and wide. It would be impossible to cover all the scenarios it could present itself. For that reason, it makes an excellent life motto. In every situation, in every moment, the principal of non-violence can change your life.  

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Hardtail Campaign Wanna-Be

Kathryn, Jenna, & Lindsey
Hardtail Forever Campaign Ad
Well, we tried.
       Even though we're lacking the gorgeous (expensive) matching clothes, the advanced level yoga poses, and the apparent effortlessness with which the poses are executed, I'm proud of our picture.
       Lindsey, Jenna and I tried dozens of combinations before we finally landed on this one... a beautiful harmony of backbends. In yoga, backbends are known for their energizing quality, and with the added sunshine, the three of us girls were brimming with energy! Backbends are also often said to produce an emotional release, due to the opening sensation in the chest cavity (poetically near the heart, where we contain our feelings).
In fact, I've heard several interesting stories of yogis who have gone into Ustrasana (Camel pose), and suddenly found themselves sobbing uncontrollably. (Apparently, in our case, Jenna had the opposite reaction... she couldn't stop laughing... although that may have been due to the fact that my rear end was dangerously close to her face....)
        Our picture shows real girls having fun, being creative, and collaborating to produce something beautiful. I hope this inspires some of you to go out on a sunny day with a friend and try something crazy. Experiment with your coolest yoga poses. We had a blast doing it. We laughed at ourselves dozens of times for falling out of poses, bad ideas, and failed combinations.
        So maybe we don't look like the Hardtail campaign, but yoga's not a competition anyway, right?